Welcome, September

 

“When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”

-Khalil Gibran

 

It’s finally September! When I close my eyes and think of this month, I see a lot of tree leaves falling to the ground. We don’t really have leaf falling in Egypt, but still, this is what I picture. September is a tricky month for me, it has one of my deepest sorrows and one of my best joys.

I used to celebrate my birthday in September. I wasn’t really born in it, but to the country, I am. This is actually a generation crisis, not just me. I remember that day clearly. It was a day after my “fake” birthday, I met two of my friends to celebrate it. After we finished, I was going back home knowing that I would finally see my aunt. I was so excited. She was coming back from hospital that day. When I finally arrived, I heard a voice calling her name, saying that.. she’s dead.

After that, I never celebrated my birthday in September ever again. I talked about my aunt before and I’ll probably never stop writing about her. Was she an angel? Of course not, nobody is. But she was definitely too good for this world. She was somebody that gave everyone around her some sort of comfort. She was everyone’s free therapist. I like to close my eyes real tight and picture her smiling.

Some of my friends lost some of their beloved ones this year. I did lose two as well. There is nothing as hard as dealing with loss. You’re living your normal life then someone suddenly vanishes. Nothing would ever comfort those dealing with loss, nothing. Specially if it’s someone you see everyday. If you’re reading this and you recently lost somebody, I’m really sorry for your loss. I’m sure that you know they are in a better place, but probably you’re still questioning how life is gonna be without them. You don’t have to think about it, the only thing you gotta do is to cry when you need to and to let yourself smile when you feel like it. Don’t force yourself to do anything. I know life is so hard and seems impossible at this moment, but please give yourself time..

 Allowing yourself to cry is healthy. Buying that thing you always wanted but never got is a good thing. Rewarding yourself and being kind to that precious soul of yours is a must. Knowing your worth won’t come in a day and night. Looking for yourself might take years, but the results are spectacular.

Did you know that September is the Self-Care Awareness month? What about we have a little challenge together? It’s a 30-days happiness challenge! You know keeping ourselves happy counts as self-care, right? But, please, if you’re facing something these days, don’t participate. Live your emotions and don’t force things.

Tell me if you’re going to participate in the comments! Also, change the options you're not interested in to something that makes you happy!